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Driving from Beijing into the Bashang Grassland in Hebei, the scattered snowflakes began to flutter down, whimsically covering the ground, repeatedly laying a thick blanket of snow. With the arrival of heavy snow, the snowflakes descended like a sudden gift to the soul, bringing tiny bits of comfort and warmth. The glass windows of the guesthouse were marked with red lip prints and warmth. I carefully gathered this warmth in my hands and placed it by my bedside, falling into a peaceful sleep.<\/p>\n

At minus 42 degrees, I felt quiet and serene in the extreme cold, appearing detached from the world and completely transcendent. It seemed this was my fate; my heart was utterly exhausted, yet powerless to escape, leaving me to ponder how to cope internally. When others’ worlds collapse, I bear the weight, but when my own world falls apart, who can support me? I am a contradiction, a split, a fierce conflict. Even with a PhD in conflict law and an understanding of its norms, I find they do not apply to me. That night, my thoughts roamed through my dreams, released in the crisp morning air, allowing my musings to oxidize and disperse in the frozen molecules.<\/p>\n

I have long understood the coldness of the world; the glaciers and snowfields of Iceland feel so familiar, affirming my sense of belonging. Everything in my dreams is the true reality; last night’s dream was what I longed for, with snow flickering like burning charcoal in a deep red glow.<\/p>\n

So warm and cozy, I remember how my parents used to warm our small room with a cast iron stove, its long chimney extending out through a round hole in the window. As the smoke was expelled, it reminded me of my breath dissipating in the cold air. Reluctantly, I would leave the warmth of the blankets, enamored with the reality and comfort of my dreams.<\/p>\n

In that half-awake state, I greedily enjoyed the warmth of my exhaled breath; it was my thoughts manifesting. Inside my being, there was at least a fragment of my soul engaging in conversation with itself. The cold became a condition for my soul’s survival, and all ugliness and filth faded from view, leaving only a faint breath of warmth, pure and immaculate, quietly floating around me. I could feel that warmth, a warmth coming from beyond the cold. I might feel lost, perhaps even willing to lay bare my soul, as my mother said I couldn’t stand it when others treated me well; I would give my life away, and perhaps that is true, a natural flaw.<\/p>\n

Meditation or conjecture became my state of being, and that was fine; my skin and body remained in a youthful state, untouched by aging. In another thirty years, I would still be like this. This must be one of the benefits of living in a world of ice and snow. I can’t say I fully enjoy the pleasures of dreams, the dispersal of hormones, emotional outbursts, and confessions, because I know all beauty is fleeting, and nothing exists eternally.<\/p>\n

The snow in the forest was waist-deep, and suddenly a few foxes appeared not far away. A silver fox wandered a few steps from me, its beautiful eyes watching me closely. In the distant sky, a halo appeared, commonly referred to as three suns, and then the silver fox vanished. That night, I dreamed of pouring a kettle of boiling water into the air, instantly creating an arc of ice that transformed into a diamond collar around the neck of the silver fox. The fleeting excitement and the long-awaited warmth vanished in an instant.<\/p>\n

This weather lasted for months, and the snow quickly melted. Six months later, the desertified grassland lay bare under the harsh sun, the world returning to a pale, powerless, and unpoetic scene.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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