梦见我的归宿(2016年拍摄于冰岛)
“Dreaming of My Homecoming” (Filmed in 2016 in Iceland)
2016年4月1日冰岛环岛公路还未开放,我却已经开车向东行进,我计划环岛12天自驾,观冰湖、探冰川、越雪原,穿火山在神秘的苔原(藓)里寻找维京人的遗迹。无知的我差点陷入夺命的沼泽,掉进深不可测的雪窝,即便如此,我收获了冰岛马的亲近,它们像小朋友一样排队让我拍摄;住在农场,主人希望我留下来,他们拥有1000公顷土地和冰川。4月罕见的极光出现在那天深夜,我被震撼被感动。极光属于这里,而我属于梦境。
穿越雪原前,经过长约1000米的火山灰石区,一边是黝黑松散的山坡,顶上白雪覆盖,一边是山涧,火山碎石铺就的单行简易路看似很不踏实。我不能前行,也无法后退,于是我抱着一死的决心拼命稳住车缓缓前行通过,浑身瘫软、衣服浸湿,在这座小山下我开始大喘气。看着眼前的山,我开始恐惧,那是一种前所未有的压迫感,那一刻孤独绝望,那座山渐渐朝我压迫而来。凝视片刻,冷冷的风从黑漆漆的山上吹来,我突然觉得这山与我的亲近,它伟岸,包容,冷峻中散发着无限温馨,我那久违的暖回来了。
On April 1, 2016, the Ring Road in Iceland had not yet opened, but I was already driving east. I planned to drive around the island for 12 days, visiting ice lagoons, exploring glaciers, traversing snowfields, and searching for Viking relics in the mysterious moss-covered tundra. In my ignorance, I nearly fell into deadly swamps and sank into unfathomable snow pits. Even so, I was rewarded with the intimacy of Icelandic horses, which lined up like children for me to photograph. Staying on a farm, the owner hoped I would stay; they owned 1,000 hectares of land and glaciers. That night, a rare aurora appeared, and I was stunned and moved. The aurora belonged here, while I belonged to a dream.
Before crossing the snowfield, I passed through an approximately 1,000-meter stretch of volcanic ash and stones, with dark, loose hills on one side, capped with white snow, and a mountain gorge on the other. The single-lane road paved with volcanic debris seemed very precarious. I could neither move forward nor retreat, so I resolved to push on, desperately stabilizing the car as I slowly advanced. My body felt weak, my clothes soaked, and at the foot of this small mountain, I began to gasp for breath. Looking at the mountain before me, I started to feel fear; it was an unprecedented sense of oppression. In that moment of loneliness and despair, the mountain gradually bore down on me. After staring for a moment, a cold wind blew from the pitch-black mountain, and suddenly I felt a kinship with it. It was majestic, embracing, and amid its starkness radiated infinite warmth; the long-lost warmth within me returned.